All my life I have been on a quest looking for love:

Love from my friends

Love from my family

Love from my children

Love from my partner

Each time I found it, it was never enough.

No matter how much love I received from all of these sources, I still found myself lacking.

Wanting more.

A bottomless pit.

A black hole.

Where is all this love going? How is it that I am becoming numb to the same gestures of love that once filled my cup?

Why are the stories of doubt, disbelief, and dismay flooding the dialogue of my mind again and again?

Why?

Give me the answer! I want a quick fix, so I can move on with my day and onto the next self indulgent post or story!

Gimme gimme gimme!

Here’s the answer:

I am all the love I need, and I’m not broken.

Sounds like the most cliche advice I could ever hear in a time like this.

I’m in crisis mode! Downward spiral! Ready to hit the eject button! And the answer I get is, “ I am all the love I am seeking, and I’m not broken?!?!?”

Let’s break this down into two parts, starting with

“I’m not broken”

Ok, so here’s why I’m not broken:

Through the patterns of our minds interactions with our environment, we have wired ourselves to believe systems of thought and perceive the world according to those beliefs (read Joe Dispenza’s ‘Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself’) This is a normal human survival behavior.

When I look at it this way, I see I’m not broken! so, how do I fix this patterning and behavior that is getting in the way of the love I’m seeking?

There is no ‘quick fix’.

Why am I even looking for a ‘quick fix’ if truly believe I’m not broken?

If I am looking for a ‘fix’ there must remain a belief deep down in my psyche that I am broken.

Aha!

Therein lies an opportunity.

Ok, so I found something I can work with. Now what do I do?

How do I shift these thoughts into ones that get me back on the track to love?

“I am all the love I am seeking”

Like pulling weeds in a garden, I need to get to the root of the belief/pattern in order to make space for the belief that I am all the love that I am seeking.

I will call this my garden of self-love

What tools do I use to clear this garden and get to the root of the limiting beliefs?

Breath.

Deep belly breaths while flexing the perineum to create a pumping motion that generates a current of energy up the spine

Sound.

Feeling the vibration of my voice and primal sounds move stagnant thoughts out of my body

Movement.

Allowing my body to move and flow with the breeze and tuning into the subtle dance of silence. Or moving and shaking with no rhyme or reason to the beat of tribal drumming

What is harvested?

Acceptance. I am ok as I am

Appreciation. Thank you taking care of us

Forgiveness. I am sorry I was so hard on myself

Self-Love. I am the true love I was looking for all along.

The harvest is abundant, and there is always enough to go around.

Now the love I was once seeking outside of me is fully sourced within, and I am giving it freely without expectation of receiving it back, since I am in abundance.

And as a bonus, the ones who are fully sourced with their self-love recognize this frequency of abundance and. feel compelled to reciprocate this sharing of their love harvest.

And you don’t have to take my word for it. Try it out!

Curious to learn more about the tools to cultivate your garden of self-love? Let’s talk.

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